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Money money, reminder, I might as well write poems to you—dear American money—O statue of Liberty I ride enfolded in money in my mind to you—and last

   Ahhh! Washington again, on the Dollar, same poetic black print, dark words, The United States of America, innumerable numbers

R956422481 One Dollar This Certificate is Legal Tender (tender!) for all debts public and private

My God My God why have you forsaken me

Ivy Baker Priest Series 1953 F

and over, the Eagle, wild wings outspread, halo of the Stars encircled by puffs of smoke & flame—

a circle the Masonic Pyramid, the sacred Swedenborgian Dollar

America, bricked up to the top, & floating surreal above

the triangle of holy outstaring Eye sectioned out of the aire, shining

light emitted from the eyebrowless triangle—and a desert of cactus, scattered all around, clouds afar,

this being the Great Seal of our Passion, Annuit Coeptis, Novus Ordo Seclorum,

the whole surrounded by green spiderwebs designed by T-Men to prevent foul counterfeit—

ONE

S.S. United States, July 1958

‘Back on Times Square, Dreaming of Times Square’

Let some sad trumpeter stand

          on the empty streets at dawn

and blow a silver chorus to the

          buildings of Times Square,

memorial of ten years, at 5 A.M., with

          the thin white moon just

                    visible

     above the green & grooking McGraw

          Hill offices

a cop walks by, but he’s invisible

          with his music

The Globe Hotel, Garver lay in

     gray beds there and hunched his

     back and cleaned his needles—

where I lay many nights on the nod

     from his leftover bloody cottons

     and dreamed of Blake’s voice talking—

          I was lonely,

        Garver’s dead in Mexico two years,

       hotel’s vanished into a parking lot

And I’m back here—sitting on the streets

again—

     The movies took our language, the

          great red signs

     A DOUBLE BILL OF GASSERS

          Teen Age Nightmare

       Hooligans of the Moon

But we were never nightmare

     hooligans but seekers of

          the blond nose for Truth

Some old men are still alive, but

          the old Junkies are gone—

We are a legend, invisible but

          legendary, as prophesied

New York, July 1958

Laughing Gas

     To Gary Snyder

The red tin begging cup you gave me,

I lost it but its contents are undisturbed.

I

High on Laughing Gas

I’ve been here before

the odd vibration of

the same old universe

the nasal whine of the dentist’s drill

     singing against the nostalgic

          piano Muzak in the wall

insistent, familiar, penetrating

     the teeth, where’ve I heard that

          asshole jazz before?

The universe is a void

     in which there is a dreamhole

     The dream disappears

          the hole closes

It’s the instant of going

into or coming out of

existence that is

important—to catch on

to the secret of the magic

          box

Stepping outside the universe

     by means of Nitrous Oxide

anesthetizing mind-consciousness

     the chiliasm was an impersonal dream—

one of many, being mere dreams.

     the sadness of birth

     and death, the sadness of

changing from dream to dream,

  the constant farewell

     of forms …

          saying ungoodbye to what

didn’t exist

The many worlds that don’t exist

all which seem real

all joke

all lost cartoon

At that moment the whole goofy-spooky of the Universe WHAT?! Joke Being slips into Nothing like the tail of a lizard disappearing into a crack in the Wall with the final receding eyehole ending Loony Tunes accompanied by Woody Woodpecker’s hindoo maniac laughter in the skull. Nobody gets hurt. They all disappear. They were never there. Beginningless perfection.

That’s why Satori’s accompanied by laughter

and the Zenmaster rips up the Sutras in fury.

And the pain of this contrariety

The cycles of scream and laughter

faces and asses Christs and Buddhas

each with his own universe dragged

over the snowy mental poles

like a sack mad Santa Clauses

Worst pain in the dentist’s chair comes true

novocaine also arrives in the cycle

every hap will have its chance

even God will come Once or Twice

Satan will be my personal enemy

Relax and die—

The process will repeat itself

Be Born! Be Born!

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